As I sit here this morning meditating on this blog, I ask myself the question, "Where do I go from here?" It's clear to me from the last few weeks of writing that tackling the silence in the Christian church on sex is much needed. It's clear to me that women (and men!) are hungry for people who are willing to talk openly and honestly about an area that is so shrouded in secrecy. Well, maybe not secrecy, but more like denial. Whatever the case, it leaves me to wrestle with whether I should continue to write a bit more on this area (yes, I still have more thoughts tucked away in my mind) or not.
You see, as much as I am willing to share from our sex lives in order to help others, it is only a facet of who I am (or we are). I have a heart deeply passionate about orphans and adoption, but I haven't really even begun to scratch that part of my heart, in terms of writing. There is much I learn each day from parenting an adopted child and I yearn to write it out because the journey has not been easy and not many in the adoption community are willing to express their struggles. I think it's a fear of being judged for not being grateful for the child they wanted so badly, but in reality that is not the case. Maybe it's a fear of causing those toying with the idea of adopting to fear the hard stuff and then not adopt. I'm not entirely sure of the reason for the silence, but someone needs to talk about the struggles, but yet the incredible victory all balled up into one.
And then there is my regular life as I journey through motherhood. My parenting philosophies, my simple recipes and organizational tips. My prayers for my children...
I ask myself, where do I go from here? What is the true purpose of "The Mommy Map?" It certainly is NOT to become the next sex blog! Still thinking and praying. If you have any input, I would love to hear it. For now, this is enough in itself.